Sunday, September 25, 2011

misheard...

we can agree on this baby-
i am impatient and less than willing to be

sometimes it just seems we see anything but eye to eye
and it gets you at the worst times
and it gets me at the worst times
but somehow
we navigate the waters.

and sometimes we don't.

and we sit in silence
angry and defeated
and with tongues full of unspoken words

it seems lately
since things haven't been making sense
that we have not connected the way we should.

and i don't know how
and you don't know how
and i refuse to bow
and you refuse to bow

so that leaves us lonely and with more questions
than answers.

i told you tonight
that lately i'm simple
and all about me
and all about ego
and how that is a dangerous place to be
because i know that the ego is insatiable.

you got it
and you got out
of my car
and we walked you home
boots hitting the sidewalk in unison
but our minds were anything but.

i've been here before
and i know i'm testing you
i'm pushing you
and you are pushing back
only to understand.

i don't have answers
i've just got emotions
and i'm sorry for this sort of thing.

you deserve more

but lately nothing has made sense but the erratic emotion
that fills me
and empties me at the same time

i live in constant contradiction
i love
and i hate
and i wish
and i ponder
and i want more
than is possible
or really understandable

but the same it makes sense to the primitive
emotive
part of me
the part that doesn't always want an explanation
or an answer
for these things that
make little sense.

still i want
i want to be understood
if not by you
than just by me...