Music plays all around me
I am caught up
I am inside the rhythms you call sex
Tell me how it means nothing
and then something
depending on the atmosphere
and the company-
I'm holding onto you as you fall out of sight
searching somewhere deeper into me
looking for the seed of what makes me what i am
searching for something you can grab a hold of and keep for your own-
Jaded by the world
You search in warm spaces reserved for lovers
For what you'll become-
Listening to the rhythm of the breathing searching for your own rhythm
Making what you see
and taking what you get
back to the place reserved for no one but you-
don't be afraid to cry about the idea of what you're looking for-
I fall asleep and you stay awake
to study-
study what you're about
inside the flesh and bone
that comprises the sea
that is so stormy-
so stormy.
I wake to find your eyes
never closed
Still consumed with what is on your skin
my smells
our sounds
your touch
Looking for the spark that settles my confusion
Do you ask
or just assume
of me
On me
you hold what i give
withholding the contact that will make us equal
give me something to understand
shake my hand and give back what you hold-
then again the source is never as pure as the original
that 's what you say-
somehow thinking i can decipher the words inside the words
i only know that it isn't as difficult as the times before-
Perhaps it's getting easier with age
you just know things come so that they can go-
A sort of misled cycle of life...
I'm telling you, brown girl
All i know is that parts of me have never left
and those are the parts that i hold on to-
My face-
and my hands
Well, they've changed through the weathering life
and my heart-
well
it has gotten stronger despite the forces that try to make it weaker
and my spirit-
well it has only grown bigger to fit all the beauty that i've witnessed
while my rhythm ever-changing is getting louder
my comprehension of the broken rhythm
has only become more proficient in hearing the in-between
as i reflect on all the moments that shape me-
so looking in on this current purge-
i don't mind that it's taking the time of it's own to complete
because i'm learning more about the place inside me that only i belong
and that is something i will never have to eliminate...
