long conversation
we covered things for the most part-
we talked about all the places that women's spirits can haunt us.
the past is never very far when you're living inside a memory that won't let go.
loyalty finds crevasses in the tiniest of spots.
sometimes the best side to take is neither
and in that place you may have to argue the most to be heard.
sitting here now i can smell her shampoo on my skin
a long embrace leaves evidence every time and in the moment i'm happy for the reminder.
sitting here now i'm not sure who i'm more loyal too
my ideals or my whimsical imagination
she says sometimes you don't want to turn around to see which part of you is looking back.
in your quest to discover which part of you will prevail in love- i have one piece of advice for you-
follow your instincts-
shut out the big, fat world and all of it's judgements
and find yourself in the innermost moment of silence.
take it apart and put it back together.
you seem comfortable in where you are from the outside-
i can't answer for you where the discomfort comes from
or from whom.
i can only tell you the growing pains that you are in the middle of are good for you.
i could lose myself in this muse of you
and go looking for myself in all of your stories
but what it comes down to is this-
everyone has the choice to become the person who they'd like to be
and i think in the end you will end up being just who you are..
