though we have traveled few miles with each other i want you to know what i'm feeling towards you.
this could be my story with so many out there
but this
it is just about you
this is so particular
and so prominent for the likes of you.
a crush
a distant longing
filled with emotion and unanswered questions.
we have both been all over the map
and registered ourselves against the losses we've overcome
and fixed somehow.
and now i find myself thinking about you
and who you are in the next new challenge
and i wonder how far we have come in life even to be friends.
i never told you how much i processed our latest conversation-
i somehow moved from it and didn't recognize the impact.
but now as i look at things from a different light
i bow to this and to you and i realize the difference things have made.
i have taken the tears and looked to see that i'm all right
and i've grown
and i've lost sight of you
mostly because i realize you are unavailable to me
and what i would find in your wake.
i stand and i wake
to the reality that though you have brought a new realization to me
you cannot decifer more than you represent.
you are merely a messenger
and i can accept that.
i can see you for what you are and what you are not.
and though love is not a word between us
i can love you for what you have shown me...
