the numbers on my watch are slowly moving-
the inevitable changing of days
my head is heavy
i just can't get enough of you lately
i'm resigned to this longing i'm feeling again
i'm fine with exercising the muscle of waiting..
in the darkness we are embracing
i can see the stars and moon through your hair-
your arms are
heavy around my body
you told me to remember this moment
and i told you i'd write about it..
i'm falling madly for you,
i say
trying to break through your stomach pains for a moment
I'm not yet used to the reminder that you live with.
You told me that this moment encompassed all that you felt for me;
being outside, under the open sky, the stars and the moon, holding me, with time not being a factor-
I got it- what you said in that moment
but then again I didn't..
I'm used to words spilling from my hearts heavy mantle for you
like-
you
are
wonderful,
you
are
strong,
i
love
you...
From you i get a mirage of images
sounds
and
expressions
that spell those words out more accurately-
yet my words are getting closer to falling from my lips
these words i'm feeling so strongly.
my creativity wanes
my long list of adjectives fails me
when i'm most desperate for them
I
love
you...
are the words that are filling my ears
i
love
you...
is all i can think of-
what is the question i'm asking myself about?
whether it's "responsible" to use those words.
since when did the strongest emotion between two people suddenly become words to
contemplate the logic of?
"is it 'responsible' to use those words?"
hell- it it "responsible" to act as if my heart isn't exploding over something wonderful?
i have never been one to hold down an emotion that moves me
and i won't start now-
withholding a love that is worthy of my full attention..
to a girl whose hair i can see the stars and moon through
whose eyes i see fire in
whose body i see grace in
whose smile i can see life in
whose heart melts my own
i love you...
in every way those three meaningful and meaningless words can occupy
My promise to you is this-
i will not speak those words
but will come up with every emotion
every insight
that you've given birth to in me
and express myself to you through them...
