heavy things fall in the smallest places
everyone is feeling this one
long drives and discouraged words
he tells me that the world is not worth the worry
she's looking for some sort of recognition in my words
and i'm looking for something in her memory.
she fills mine with hers
somebody said that reassurance can be the most important thing you can give someone.
somehow that eluded me
i think i've given her that
now
i am not quite sure how 6 years went by with a failure on my part to give her that-
i'm learning
slowly
slowly
we pick up things and we place them in new places
this is the same for matters of the heart
i think we've come to a new understanding
even if the lines are blurry and crooked at times
he calls too much and is reasonably needy for a man his age
he married his dreams
but failed to see the woman inside them who didn't share the same principles
he's alone
again
and somehow turns to me
and those lines i've drawn
get stepped over
and ignored
and i'm not sure how much of it is oblivion
or lonleiness at it's rawest
regardless i push him further than he'd like to be.
i reassure her that i loved her
and tell her i still love her immensely
she's finding that the woman she was is now opposite
and she gets where i was a little better
this sort of honesty is what we've needed for a long time
and i promise to keep her at the shortest distance
a long drive home
with a sore culo
and heavy heart
she's looking for the part of her that has been fragmented, broken from the core of her
she's anything but reset tonight
i didn't reassure of her anything other than my time
that was a mistake
i should have said more
so she knows i'm here unconditionally
she traveled far from me
a long distance in miles
and even further in emotion
she will come back to me
when she's ready
when she's more complete
it's an interesting thing when reason
trumps
a desired reality
it's anything and everything
almost
the tie without the label
the intent without premeditation
she falls
and i pick her up
no questions asked
i'm getting better at this
practice of reassurance
it has to do with the heavy things
falling in small places
and keeping the most sacred things at the closet distance...
