8.12.09
it’s a cauterized sort of love
I walk around with a basic level of understanding that you know
You know my ultimate intention
From the mouths of strangers
You hear of your newest stranger-turned friends’ strange love
Anything but
But in reality
My reality that is…
I’ve been waiting for years
Only to have given my own drunken testimony
To those you call family..
I surmise a future based on the past that has lasted roughly as long as the sun has been up today.
I won’t be outdone in (by) this
I won’t be undone.
Not to be outdone by myself
My ego
And my pride
my recovery of good judgment
Demands an isolation of my words
Of my heart…
Until you(ve) leave (left)
Then it comes rushing
Rushing
And I find I’m submerged in this illusion
Of you and I
And this love you’ve yet to recognize as true
Thinly veiled intentions go unnoticed it seems
Yet the way we embraced
You held me
That was no illusion
I felt your arms
And your body
Next to mine
You didn’t let go
The way I did
You held on a little longer, love
So I think of the things that I missed the first time around
I practice the art of reliving
And I think of your smile
And your hair
And your body
Lying next to me
In the sun
In the bed
On the beach
Beneath a million stars
And even more grains of sand
I surmise a future based on the past that has lasted roughly as long as the sun has been up today.
I won’t be outdone in (by) this
I won’t be undone
Maybe someday I will have the chance
To be irresistible to you
Maybe someday
Maybe someday
I won’t come undone around you and then you'll know...
