it's my big day
or not really
if you think birthdays are just another day
but to me it's a reminder
and a reason to reach deeper into my intention
i like to reflect on the previous year, my 35th
and think about what i want to do better
or learn in my new year, my 36th
as i lay here in bed on my day
reading poetry
feeling sore and stiff
i open the window and take in
the unmistakable smell of mountain air
i can see them from where i lay
sun sending shadows down on the paisley bedspread
birds singing their songs which i'll never know the words to
i recognize myself as content
content with my reflections of the year passed
and happy with the new year ahead of me
i think the new year will be about transition
physical transition
i want to move more
into new spaces
i want to breathe in new air
of mountains
cities
and lovers.
i feel the heavy thoughts of parents i never knew
who must undoubtedly be thinking of a daughter today
and i let those thoughts move through me and out
i feel so fortunate to be loved by so many wonderful people
and am glad that every person has their own day to feel this special
this moment is perfect
there is no better way to be
than content on my day...
