i feel myself attaching to the idea that i can still save her-
with small talk.
then i'm reminded of
an
emotional responsibility to myself and the idea of not basing my happiness
on something outside my control
the end.
don't be inclined to take everything here literally-it is a composite of everything around me merely digested through my mind's eye. that is the beauty of our own individual world filters-sometimes they create fantastical portraits of things in the most accurate and inaccurate ways...