pieces misplaced..

there are just some moody days
when i feel like falling in love
give me some light
give me some energy
and i'll do the rest

we've come across a thousand words
and we've backtracked even more
from days long gone

she says i hope i can make it up to you someday
and then reminds me that she loves me.
i let silence answer her words on my screen-
sometimes words aren't enough to fill the gap
that 38 yrs creates..

i turn and think of you
and i think how you've lived pretty exclusively
left love on the outside of your heart
and i think that these are days you can't get back
they are days you may someday regret not filling with love
of another
or with another.

i read that love is as practical as anything else
and i want to tell you that
but instead i hold that truth a little closer
and i promise to love you a little more

i am feeling a little lost
but not for mis-direction
but more because i've been dreaming lately
and my dreams aren't the things of contentedness
they are struggles and rips at the seams
and boundaries that have been ignored and stepped upon.
the boundaries that permanently scar-

i am feeling a little bit angry that despite realizing i've outgrown her
she still creeps into my life and reveals her insensitive memories
and even more careless impressions of me from a past we've been passed out of.

i'd love to fall in love
with an idea
with a secret understanding
but today i will settle with words

and the realization that i'm a little bit tired
and a little bit scared of what's yet to come
the same way that i worry about being more than a little misunderstood..